Sunday, January 18, 2009
Mercury is retrograde in Aquarius right now which means I am actually getting a chance to catch up on some things like reading astroblogs and submissions for the Astrology Carnival (the next edition is coming soon. There are a lot of submissions this time so it'll be a good one). I just read April's post about Pluto's last day in Sagittarius, where she asks, "How are you different now than you were thirteen years ago? And how has Pluto in Sagittarius left its mark on you?"
Since Pluto opposed my Sun right before entering Sagittarius (my ascendant), I've spent about half my life in a Pluto transit. And Pluto didn't just transit my ascendant. He also was conjunct Neptune, opposed my Moon and Jupiter, and trined Saturn, Mars, Venus and Eris. How do I sum all that up? Well, I recently finished Fierce Invalids Home from Hot Climates and I think one of the characters said it best: "Enlightened and endarkened. The ultimate."
The biggest mark Pluto in Sagittarius has left on me is a deep understanding of authentic power. See, Pluto rules the things we give power to, so for most people that's our fears. We give our power over to our fears, because we think this is what will make us invincible to hurt. Then our fears become masks and roles we take on in order to protect and hide the part of ourselves that is most vulnerable to being hurt. These masks and roles can be of great service at times when dealing with day to day stuff. They can also be enormous fun. The problem is when we become too identified with them, especially during, oh, we'll say, a Pluto transit to your ascendant. What Pluto then does is rips off the masks and starts poking you where it hurts the most just because he can. At least until it slowly dawns on you that being vulnerable is not something to protect or hide. At least until your realize there is no such thing as more or less power, or power over, or power sunnyside up. You're either owning your power or giving it away to something outside of you. You're either being your real self or a fake someone else.
I could go on endlessly trying to describe my hard to put into words Plutonian transformation, but basically, I feel like I should be wearing a shirt that says, "Pluto destroyed my ego and he is too a planet."
tags: Pluto, Pluto in Sagittarius, Pluto transit